And yet, even with my aversion to lots of noise, how often am I truly still and silent? How often do I really allow myself to be alone with my thoughts? No, I, too, seek to drown out my thoughts and prayers by remaining busy. Not that busyness alone accounts for that, for I can and do pray and think when I'm doing housework or walking or whatnot. It's more when I'm sitting that I can't seem to be still, paradoxically. It is then when I suddenly need to be online or reading, instead of having a conversation, thinking, or praying. I'm not doing anything that is noisy, and yet I drown out my thoughts and prayers just the same, instead of listening for that small, still voice. I know I should endeavor to allow myself to be still and silent more, but it's something with which I struggle.