As I knelt, I reflected how it seems I am rarely "just there" with God or others. There is always something to distract, something that needs doing. Yet when I allow myself to "just be", with God or others, I never regret it and instead must tear myself away unwillingly. I wanted to just stay there, to just "look at Him [while] He looks at me," but I had to get home to finish making dinner. Of course, I can be present when doing household tasks as well, but those times when I'm just there, those are the ones where I can get a fleeting glimpse of eternity.
25 June 2013
Today was a special day at my parish, for our Bishop was coming to celebrate Mass in honour of Mary, Queen of Peace. Before Mass, there was Adoration and Confession. I definitely didn't want to miss those, and so I took Leo and went. I always love Adoration and am frequently in tears as I kneel before Jesus. Today, I came with a lot of things on my mind, a lot of worries, and I immediately launched into prayers of petition. As I started that, I felt Jesus saying "Just be. Don't fret, just be with Me." I started to protest, only to feel Him say that again. So I slowed down, I just knelt there for a bit before bringing my petitions to Him.